Even Celebrities Aren’t Immune To Mental Illness

Written by Taylor Nicole.
The summer of 2014 hit me like a ton of bricks. I was in serious treatment for my mental health. I was at my lowest of the low. And just when it seemed like it couldn’t get any worse, my hero, Robin Williams, died by suicide. I was a wreck. My hero, the man with a similar diagnosis to me was gone. I had spent the summer learning more about him, idolizing him. He meant so much to me, and just like that, he was gone. I mourned the loss of my hero deeply. I lost a lot of faith the day he died. You see, for me he was a beacon of hope; proof that it gets better. I was shocked by his death, and so was the rest of the world. For days it was all my friends seemed to be posting about.

 

She was greeted with mockery. I was disgusted.

 

That summer was also the year Amanda Bynes had her breakdown. Amanda Bynes was the subject of a 5th grade research paper for me, and another childhood hero. I always loved Amanda Bynes’s movies and television series. She was one of my favorite comedic actresses. I expected with Robin Williams suicide that people would be sensitive to her breakdown; instead she was greeted with mockery. I was disgusted.

 

If my friends couldn’t respect a celebrity and her mental breakdown, what would make them respect mine?

 

The truth was, I just had my very own breakdown, similar to Amanda’s and in some ways just as public. I expected my friends especially to be understanding with her breakdown. Instead she was the subject of memes and hateful posts. If my friends couldn’t respect a celebrity and her mental breakdown, what would make them respect mine?

 

I’ve survived suicide attempts and humiliating breakdowns.

 

I’ve been on both ends; I’ve survived suicide attempts and humiliating breakdowns. One didn’t deserve more sympathy than the other. They were both part of my mental illness; one thing that drove me to do very extreme, but similar things. The truth is I needed just as much support and love when I was feeling one way than I did the other.

 

Mental illness isn’t pretty. It’s an ugly monster, and can easily destroy a person. We need to show love and support during breakdowns and the ugly side of mental illness to avoid losing another soul.

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Taylor Nicole is a 23 year old mother, writer, and advocate for mental health and for foster children. Her memoir, Free Tayco, will be available for purchase on April 7.

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2017-07-20T22:37:50+00:00 July 20th, 2017|blog, Taylor Jones, writing|