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I Hate My Self Harm Scars

Written by Taylor Jones.
 

I hate my self harm scars.

Every time I see the now faint lines it brings me back to that moment. The moment where my life didn’t matter anymore and all I could think about was hurting myself. Those scars bring me back to a mindset I once had. I hate those flashbacks. I hate my self harm scars.

 

 

I hate my self harm scars.

Every time I see the white scars I get re-triggered. It’s almost tempting to see those scars, especially on hard days. Some days it just feels like it would be easier to rip one of the scars open, a temporary relief. It brings me back to that mindset in the moment. There’s too much on the line now though, it’s not an option for me.
 
 

 

I hate my self harm scars.

Every time I see those little lines I think of where I once was, and the battle ahead. But there’s a small part of me that still has a little compassion for those cuts. Those cuts were from a darker time for me, and I survived. Those cuts were from the lowest of my lows, and I made it out. I have come so far, and I am proud of that.

 

 

I hate my self harm scars,

but they’re a part of me whether I like it or not. They tell my story, and of tales that were darker than my story as a whole. I hate them, but they’re there and there’s not much I can do with them. So I live with them and hope for healing.

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Taylor NicoleSchizophrenic.NYC – Staff Blogger
Taylor Nicole is a 23 year old mother, writer, and advocate for mental health and for foster children. Her memoir, Free Tayco, will be available for purchase on April 7.

Website: AuthorTaylorNicole.com
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2017-06-29T20:06:32+00:00 June 29th, 2017|blog, Taylor Jones, writing|